Well my schedule has been full since I last wrote, I got to leave early from work today, so what better to do than to spend some time blogging.
June was a busy but fulfilling month, a lot of my friends came back from the UK & Australia, it was great going on trips and hanging out with them. I went to Kuala Terengganu and Pulau Perhentian for a short getaway last week, and in many ways the trip was special because it marked the end of a part of my life and the beginning of a new one. I wished i had more time to rest after that, but the world doesn’t always revolve around you now does it.
I officially started work in Ernst & Young (EY) on Monday, I thought I would have trouble sleeping the night before, but I K.O-ed like a baby. I also thought the fact I had to start working would hit me, but it didn’t, and honestly it still hasn’t. I had a conversation with a close friend about transitioning from being a university student to an “adult” with a full time job. He was telling me how he doesn’t want that day to come, and that the idea of working until you retire and having responsibilities and obligations is terrifying. I don’t know if the majority of graduates or to-be graduates think that way, but I don’t see it as such.
Yes it’s terrifying and yes if I could not work for the rest of my life I would, but i feel so much more empowered than I was before. I felt the same way about graduating high school and starting college too. I hear people left and right to me saying that they wish they could go back and how those were the best times of their lives, and i agree, high school was the best time of my life, the people I’ve met there, the memories we created together, I hold them dear to my heart.
But I felt powerless. There were so many things we couldn’t do, we were so restricted, at least I felt I was. As i progress in life and transition into an adult, i feel more and more in control in my life, I feel powerful because now i can live however I want to, i could backpack around the world, I can wake up and decide that i want to drive to Singapore for breakfast, I can buy 10 pairs of shoes and not wear them, I can just sit at home and play computer games all day if i wanted to. Now lets be clear, it’s not that I’ll actually do those things, and I know they are extreme examples, but they demonstrate my point, and it’s that when I’m in control of my own finances and actions, when my options are open and there are unlimited choices for me to make, I feel so much more alive.
The first 3 days in EY were somewhat an orientation, I start my training tomorrow, and I think I’ll be assigned to my team in the coming week. I learnt from my seniors in NRG that the department may require me to travel a lot depending on where the client is located. I’m conflicted about what to feel, on one hand I’m looking forward to it as I enjoy travelling a lot, and i feel that I’ll make closer colleagues as travelling and staying together pulls people closer, but on the other hand this irregular schedule means that my gym plans are probably fucked up, but we’ll see.
I wish i could talk more but I have to go out in about 20 minutes and i need to get ready. Until next time. xx
Love,
Ken.
Life of a Ken 